scorching the blood in my vampire heart

[honeyspider]

I'm sick. Not as sick as I was last night, which included a little bit of delirum and running off at the mouth when I prorbably should have said nothing, but still ill. My throat is trying to rip it's way out of my body it seems.

It's probably just lucky I wasn't spending time with certian people who would make me scream at them. My throat hurts too much to scream. I'll just keep my screaming on the inside.

People make me prickle sometimes.

Second night of the 48 Hour Party sucked to hell. Usually all the crap stuff that happens at KAOS parties is totally overwhealmed by the good. Cause, yay, KAOS parties. But now I don't think I ever want to go to another one. Cause he was so one of the reasons I loved showing up at them. And I fucked up so badly with him. After all the shit I pulled and the way I treated him... I want to die.

Meh.

Comments

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Second night of the 48 is usually a mess. Give it a week; things are probably not nearly as bad as you think right now.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

*sounds of general 'hah, yeah right'ness*

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Well, if it helps any, I recall being convinced I'd mortally offended a young lady at a 48 a couple of years ago. Found out about six months later (after being unable to apologise - no contact mechanism) that she hadn't even noticed.

Perspective is usually somewhat lacking while recovering from the overload typified by the 48.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

I beat you hands down: I got rid of a guy I really really liked and hurt him more than I ever wanted to.

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Well, you could always try telling him that. If he's worth having, of course.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

Yeah...it sounds so cliche...but it's not as simple as that apparently.

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Oh? Funny, every time I think that it just gets worse; every time I lose my temper and actually talk, it gets simpler.

Of course, that might just be me.

[andrew-in-nz.livejournal.com]

lol not just you :)