scorching the blood in my vampire heart

[honeyspider]

I'm sick. Not as sick as I was last night, which included a little bit of delirum and running off at the mouth when I prorbably should have said nothing, but still ill. My throat is trying to rip it's way out of my body it seems.

It's probably just lucky I wasn't spending time with certian people who would make me scream at them. My throat hurts too much to scream. I'll just keep my screaming on the inside.

People make me prickle sometimes.

Second night of the 48 Hour Party sucked to hell. Usually all the crap stuff that happens at KAOS parties is totally overwhealmed by the good. Cause, yay, KAOS parties. But now I don't think I ever want to go to another one. Cause he was so one of the reasons I loved showing up at them. And I fucked up so badly with him. After all the shit I pulled and the way I treated him... I want to die.

Meh.

Comments

[phfa.livejournal.com]

*first comment snuggles*

[(Anonymous)]

*hugs*

Sounds painful.

-BoR

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

You're mysterious and LJless... How confusing, darling.

[slothphil.livejournal.com]

You'll be back. You're ours now :-)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

Yeah, KAOS doesn't look so enticing anymore.

And the bordello? Man, I so never want to go back there.

[slothphil.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

You're too hasty, and too hard on yourself.

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Second night of the 48 is usually a mess. Give it a week; things are probably not nearly as bad as you think right now.

[sundered-dark.livejournal.com]

Breathe, and work from there.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

*sounds of general 'hah, yeah right'ness*

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Well, if it helps any, I recall being convinced I'd mortally offended a young lady at a 48 a couple of years ago. Found out about six months later (after being unable to apologise - no contact mechanism) that she hadn't even noticed.

Perspective is usually somewhat lacking while recovering from the overload typified by the 48.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

I beat you hands down: I got rid of a guy I really really liked and hurt him more than I ever wanted to.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

Yeah, I've got the breathing thing down pat. Not too hard with practice.

I almost showed up at your place at about 10. But I thought better of it and went home instead.

Tonight I had wings.

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Well, you could always try telling him that. If he's worth having, of course.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

Yeah...it sounds so cliche...but it's not as simple as that apparently.

[theuns.livejournal.com]

Oh? Funny, every time I think that it just gets worse; every time I lose my temper and actually talk, it gets simpler.

Of course, that might just be me.

[sundered-dark.livejournal.com]

Hmmm

//In the general sence.

[andrew-in-nz.livejournal.com]

lol not just you :)

[matrix-rehashed.livejournal.com]

*not the first comment snuggles*

[matrix-rehashed.livejournal.com]

cue mysterious "do do doooooooo" music

[http://users.livejournal.com/_honeyspider/]

thank you, darling.

once my throat stops sending me crazy with the pain i'm probably going to send you a very long email explaining...well, everything up to this point.

it's fun *rolls eyes*

[matrix-rehashed.livejournal.com]

ok,





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